The Girl With the Broken Smile

annastarr @ 2005-01-08T02:11:00

2005-01-08T02:05:47Z

happy happy happy, me muchos drunk!

im pissed and i cant wait to see you next week ellie!!

much loive to you all!!!

<333

Helenxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

annastarr @ 2004-07-10T23:54:00

2004-07-10T22:48:16Z

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on

A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows

You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner

You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult

It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply

Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family

Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.

Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.

Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.

Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.

Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Best place to meet someone online:

eHarmony - you'll be able to take the time to get to know each potential match well

Best color to attract mate: Aqua

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

BORED!

2004-06-27T21:24:12Z

BORED BORED BORED BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so very very bored!!! got an exam tomorow morning and i dont kow anything for it so instead of doing some last minuted cramming im here writting pointless updates!!

hope you all had a good weekend? think of me tomorow!

<3

NIIIICE!!!

2004-06-17T18:20:13Z

Pinched from Le Jenn!

What kind of disease are you?

annastarr:

annastarr is caused by Satan.

annastarr will slowly turn infected subject into a dinosaur.
The only cure for annastarr is to kill a chicken and wear its skin on your head.

annastarr @ 2004-06-14T11:14:00

2004-06-14T10:07:11Z

How to make a annastarr

Ingredients:

1 part intelligence

3 parts crazyiness

5 parts empathy

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little emotion if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

annastarr @ 2004-06-10T19:49:00

2004-06-10T18:42:42Z

Pinched from Le Jenn!

;D

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annastarr @ 2004-05-23T13:15:00

2004-05-23T12:08:31Z

dunno why that last entry posted like it did?

*shrugs*

annastarr @ 2004-05-18T23:35:00

2004-05-18T22:28:56Z

i think ive lost the beautiful ring that my daddy got me from Egypt!!!

im so fucking angry at myself it really was lovely!!!!

:(

annastarr @ 2004-03-27T12:39:00

2004-03-27T12:45:56Z

i cant be arsed doing all the tings that i have to do this weekend:
>do my english language coursework
>do my english lietature coursework
>finish my media advanced production essay
>do my AS log book
>finish doing all my washing an tidy my room
>do more filming for my mini thriller(hopefully the last time fingers crossed)

so cant be bothered with it all!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway im cooking lunch for my friend craig today and were going to talk about our skiing trip some more and try and work out how im gonna get my £1000 deposit sometime soon, im think im going to have to get it off my parents but the only thing is is that my mum doesnt really want me to go but when i first told her about the ida she said that she woulod pay for half the trip as long as i would pay the other half which i am completely up for. me and fliss are both going away next year shes going to aussie land and im going to the US of A so we both need quite a lot of money so weve decided to do MEDEVAL has anyone heard of it or done it?

anyway thats it kids thats my weekend hope yours are gonna be a bit more interesting?

oh yeah just remembered my little sister came upto to me lats night and asked me if i would model for her art! *touched* no ones ever asked me to model for their art before and id have thought that id be the last one mary would have asked me to do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<33

Sore Nipples :(

2004-03-25T14:35:14Z

i know you girls with sympathise with me over this one...

its just that its that time of the month AGAIN and ive got really really painful and tender nipples and its really pissing me off because even if i get nidged slightly in the hall at college i wanna cry out for the sheer amount of pain that i am in, im sure the situation is just hightened my the faxct that ive got my nipple pierced!

dammit!!!!!!!

annastarr @ 2004-03-23T19:24:00

2004-03-23T19:23:10Z

right the weidest thing just happened when i was making dinner for me and me dad, my mobile rang and it was i number i didnt recognise, so i pick it up and there was this guy on the phone whos voice i reconginised but i didnt catch his name all i got was that he goes to parswood and went to the ritz last night. i dont have a fucking clue who it is how frustrating! i was thinking that it might be tom k but then i was thinking why the hell would he call me?

oh well hopefully theyll ring me back later and ill be able to work out who it is, if not i may never know!

*shurgs*

annastarr @ 2004-03-20T01:13:00

2004-03-20T01:07:28Z

Sum up your opinion or impression of me in one word, leave it as a comment in this posting, and then post this sentence in your own journal!

annastarr @ 2004-03-15T14:48:00

2004-03-15T14:55:29Z

what a good/crap weekend ive had its been weird. had a top night on saturday night at marys birthday got really fucked which was good to a certain extent but i really think that fliss has fallen out with me really badly and i dont want her to have because i need her so so much its unreal, and shes the last person in the world that i would want to hurtb Ever! hopefully ill be able to talk to her properly this afternoon when she comes over o mine to film.

just feel dead on edge like the feeling that any minute soon my grip on reality is going to be pulled right from under my feet and im going to be left all on my own with no one there to help me pick the pieces up and then where will that leave me?

annastarr @ 2004-02-29T22:27:00

2004-02-29T22:25:07Z

SURVEY PINCHED FROM LAURA AS IVE NEVER DONE ONE AND IM SO VERY BORED!

Layer One:
-- Name: Helen
-- Birthdate: 04/07/1986
-- Birthplace: Scotland
-- Current Location: Manchester

Layer Two:
-- Your heritage: half dutch and half irish
-- The shoes you wore today: dc’s(so very comfy)
-- Your weakness: people who hurt me
-- Your fears: getting hurt(how ironic) and hurting others
-- Your perfect pizza: Soho Pizza@Pizza Express
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: right now to be back on good terms with Craig, in the long run I really don’t know

Layer Three:
-- Your most overused phrase on MSN: coolies
-- Your thoughts first waking up: shit im hungover I need something to drink!>:(
-- Your bedtime: Early morning

Layer Four:
-- Pepsi or Coke: don’t really like either
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonalds
-- Single or group dates: prolly single
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton

Layer Five:
-- smoke: YES!
-- Cuss: too much
-- Sing: yes(and ive been told im quite good too:))
-- Take a shower everyday: Yes or a bath
-- Have a crush(es): Yup
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes
-- Want to go to college: still there cant wait to leave
-- Like high school: some of the time
-- Want to get married: Yeah
-- Believe in yourself: nopies
-- Get motion sickness: never
-- Think you're attractive: …ish
-- Think you're a health freak: not at all!
-- Get along with your parents: on the odd occasion but most of the time no

Layer Six: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: yes
-- Done a drug: yes
-- Had Sex: Yes
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Gone on a date: Yes
-- Gone to the mall?: Yes

Layer Seven: Ever..
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes
-- Been called a tease: Yes
-- Gotten beaten up: No
-- Shoplifted: yes but it was by accident
-- Changed who you were to fit in: think so(hasn’t pretty much everyone?)

Layer Eight:
-- How do you want to die: don’t care as long as people love me and remember me
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: no quite sure yet

Layer Nine: In a guy/girl..
-- Best first kiss location: in the park, it was perfect

Layer Ten:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: yes
-- Number of piercings: 12 and one being done on Thursday…I hope
-- Number of tattoos: one on the base of my back ‘love hurts’ in chinese
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: never I think?
-- Number of scars on my body: enough
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: too many to count and most I cant talk about!

i do apologise that this isnt under a cut but i dont seem to be able to work them out!

annastarr @ 2004-02-19T18:11:00

2004-02-19T18:06:27Z

Masochist

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hmmmmmmmmmm?

annastarr @ 2004-02-10T23:57:00

2004-02-10T23:55:59Z

i can completely empathise with Fliss on the whole media essay thing coz ive been sat in front of my computer for about two hours and still ive only written only about two hundred words and ive gotta get it in tomorow or i get a letter home, and that is the last thing i need right now not on top of all the hassle i get from my mum and dad as it is, so it looks like its gonna be a late night for me tonight, but ive set myself a goal from now that im going to bed at two whether its done or not!
thats all for now back to the grind stone for me hope your all well kids!
lots of love mwah
<3333

annastarr @ 2003-11-10T20:16:00

2003-11-10T20:14:24Z

it's on the edge of a petal,
that love wilts!

I never want this feeling of love to fade ive finally accepted it and i never want to let it go!

annastarr @ 2003-11-05T21:12:00

2003-11-05T21:12:38Z

today marks the second month that me and craig have been back together and this make me a very happy girly indeed because its nearly the same amount of time that we went out for last time so it seems to me that if we make it past that amount of time (which wasnt very long in the first place) it really was worth waiting three months for it to be all better.

'kiss my wounds and youll never know what happiness and destruction you will find inside'

annastarr @ 2003-11-05T18:49:00

2003-11-05T18:50:20Z

i will very soon get myself an icon and do my info page i will try my best to find a half decent picture of myself to use so you can see what i look like but only joby and paula are the only onees who ive never met but its very hard to find a picture as i do not photograph well at all! >:( (your not missing much anyway) in the meantime if any of you would like to make me an icon i would be moct greatful i keep meaning to install photoshop but again i havent got round it yet, there really arent enough usable hours in the day!
*sighs*

annastarr @ 2003-11-02T21:12:00

2003-11-02T21:09:33Z

ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!
Everyone all look at my page coz ive changes the colours and what not and i want comments fromALL of you to give me ideas to how i can make it better ok?

annastarr @ 2003-11-02T13:12:00

2003-11-02T13:19:56Z

i just locked myself out of the house and i had to call my mum and dad and get them to come home from their walk to come and let me in. from now on im going to carry my house keys in my pocket whenever i go outside even if i put the latch on coz you never know.

im really sorry Jenn and Ellie for not making it on friday but there was no way i was upto doing anything. i wouldnt have been any fun anyway.

and again craig is upset with me coz last night when i was drunk at rosalinds, i text him and told him the truth that i didnt believe him when he tell me that he loves me. i dont know why im so incapable of believing that people love me i guess i just feel unworthy of their love i dont feel like i deserve the love he gives me. i have no problem in loving others or telling them that i do its just when people compliment me or show any deep form of caring i just clam up i have absolutely no idea how to accept that im worth anything. and then when i go and do what id did last night i just feel like im trying to push him as far away as possible coz its easier not to accept than to, because if i do accept it it just leaves me open to getting hurt and im just hinding behing it as a defense mechanism i guess and im hurting craig in the process which i hate myself even more for.

annastarr @ 2003-10-29T18:52:00

2003-10-29T18:49:33Z

woo woo only about 45minutes till craig gets here i cant wait to see him he always makes me happy no matter how miserable i am! we are going to see 'Finding Nemo'!
*loves*

annastarr @ 2003-10-22T18:54:00

2003-10-22T17:51:20Z

ELLIE are you going to rock world on thursday?
please come and look ultra sexy just to make me jealous!:)
<3

annastarr @ 2003-10-12T16:12:00

2003-10-12T15:17:00Z

yesterday my dad bought a mouse trap for the mouse that had been living in our celler for the last couple of months, i couldnt believe that he was actally going to try and trap this mouse in the most butal way possible, so anyway he put this mouse trap down in the celler with a little bit of banana on it and when he went down half and hour later to check on it the piece of banana was still there but the trap had gone and he found the mouse still alive with its little foot trapped in it poor little thing, it must have crushed its bones to pieces.:(

not done much today except a little bit of work and washed and blow dryed my hair. im going over to craigs in an hour so ive gotta tidy my room and get dressed before that, i told my mum yesterday that i wanted to stay over at his house and at first she was all like no and i think your being inappropriate asking but then when i explained everything to her she was ok with it which is good coz this means that i dont have to lie to her anymore about where im going to stay, so yey!

annastarr @ 2003-10-11T20:45:00

2003-10-11T20:05:30Z

im feeling so fat at the moment but i shouldnt really complain since ive eaten today:
1. six packets of pickled onion munster munch
2. a bowl of porridge(the best food in the whole wide world!)
3. five ribena ice lollies
4. one big pizza

and i really feel like another bowl of porriage now i might have one it a bit or some sort of cereal maybe? this is not good if i am to loose half a stone which is my main objective at the moment!

i wish i had the words to explain so many things to craig but i cant i dont know whether its embarressment fear or just the feeling of feeling and being exposed when i tell him my biggest secrets or dreams or experiences because i think he would understand me so much better if he knew these things about me but i just cant find the words. its the same when i want tot tell him how much i love and i know that hell never know this because ill never find the right words to tell him. i think that in life in general at the moment that im finding it hard to say what i feel i find it much easier to write it all down.

i do know that all my journal entries are filled with things about craig and are prolly extreamly boring to read but he is the phase that im going through in my life therefore he is on my mind all or most of the time, i feel i maybe growing slightly obsessed with him, this worries me also?!

me and ladyrosalind are getting on really well at the moment and im so glad of this because the last few months have not been the most comfortable for us and i now know and realise that that wasnt all down to her as i origionally thought me being stubborn and all but i feel that weve both let go of something that was making things difficult between us and everythings seems to be that little bit easier.